Tjitske W.

Time is not much of an issue for me at the moment so I concentrated on big and obsessive/small.

Big:

This is unusual for me so I needed to overcome my resistance here. I decided to make things easier by tying a big brush onto a bamboo cane so I could not paint anything beautiful or precise. Also, once I had taken the precaution of putting plastic on the floor I dipped my brush into the paint, closed my eyes and just made a few marks, opened my eyes to see if I hadn't started painting the floor and repeated the process.  I could see that black would not be enough so I added some red dots in the same way. And when I had nearly finished I allowed myself to open my eyes and put the last red dots onto the paper in a completely deliberate way. All in all great fun! This piece is about 50x140 cm.

Obsessive/small:

Next week I'll be 68 so it seemed the right moment to use the years of my life as a guideline for something obsessive. I decided to sew my life in French knots. To just start at birth and see where my 68 (or thereabouts, I was not too particular about counting) French knots would take me. I love French knots so in a way I was sad when I ran out of years, but it still felt right not to go on stitching. My stitches got me thinking about how I look back on those years, and this process is still going on. As to the stitching: after the French knots I felt it needed something else and that is when I started the small running stitches. My plan was to fill the whole of the fabric around the knots with running stitch, but I got bored and changed my plan. This piece is about 10x20 cm.

Later something interesting  occurred to me about boredom. When I worked as a psychologist boredom was something I struggled with at times. I might get bored during therapy and then I would struggle to keep my attention fixed on my client. Until I started to use my boredom as a tool, as a sign that the therapy process needed something different. And last night it occurred to me that this might well be the case with my textile work as well. I have now promised myself to take my boredom as a sign that a change of plan or direction may be needed.