Lesson Three - Jackie K.

Having had time to think about this I really don’t think I have much of an immediate external committee. Friends and family are supportive of what I do and if they don’t fully understand it at times I don’t mind. Not sure about a Noble Friend though – I will need to work on encouraging a couple re that one – perhaps we could act as Noble Friends for each other.

But recently I became aware how easy it is for a committee to suddenly rear its head. I am taking a yearlong course billed as helping develop one’s own personal style – but I have found more directive than I expected or hoped. One tutor in particular tends to comment by saying if she does or does not like a particular aspect I am working on rather than exploring what I am interested in developing and giving constructive criticism. Plus we have too many technique tutorials. This led before Christmas to me feeling really creatively blocked …….so I put my textile creativity aside and made Christmas cards! But after thinking it over hard for a few weeks I realised I DO NOT CARE IF SHE LIKES MY WORK! What matters is if it means something to me, is helping me say what I am trying to say and taking me forward. So now while the course may not be what I had initially hoped for I know to focus on what I want or need to get out of it.

I was lucky enough to have some of my City and Guilds Diploma work on display at the Festival of Quilts in Birmingham (UK) last year. I knew that what I was showing would not appeal to the all the quilting community but what was wonderful was when people ‘got it’ and understood what I was trying to say – that was what mattered to me and gave me the boost to keep going. So regarding the potential wider committee of the artistic world, I would like to be seen as producing interesting work with in the community of textile artists (whoever they really are!!) but I know that what really matters is that I am developing what I do and that it means a lot to me.