Gay M.

I do like to know the rules; then I can break them if I so choose.  But that means that the break is based on the rules so I could just be doing the opposite of what I have been told; which means that my actions are still based on the rules, albeit by consciously not doing what the rules say; is that really rebellion?  I found this exercise thought-provoking.  Why am I following the rules in the first place, what the purpose of the rules?  Why am I breaking them, just because they are labelled rules?  Would I be doing different if the rules were called ‘guidelines’ or ‘suggested ways of working’ or ‘to get the most out of this exercise….’.  What if someone I have no respect for says ‘break the rules’?  Would I be afraid they were leading me away from the path of my best interest?  Would I enjoy breaking rules just for the sake of it?  What’s the worst that can happen if I break artistic rules?  What if I had made the rules; what am I rebelling against if I break those?  In the end I still worked in black and white – why not colour? I used a white and a black square together.  I left pieces out, I cut corners, I cut out the centre, I turned pieces different ways, I enjoyed myself, I find that, unusually, I don’t want to ask “did I do this right?” because I really don’t mind what the result is meant to be, it just is and doing it was just good to experience.  I realise that I like rules and I also like to have no rules; I feel okay with no rules so not having rules to follow is okay; this is for me and no-one else but me can make me feel bad (or good) about the experience; it’s just mine.